Knit a little

Plotting a swap package from someone special keeps making me think of all the things I want to knit. Too many choices though! I think I need to narrow it down to something quick......or finish the project that was on needles ages ago. Darn I think that is what I need to do first. And then I have a birthday monster to make that is two years late. See this is why I blog - it jogs my memory. ;) Will this happen soon.....who knows but I'm hoping it does. I miss knitting and the stress release it provides.

It's gonna take some work.....

Weigh in this morning was 259.8 lbs, yesterday was 258.8 lbs. The difference? Well dinner last night was greasy bowling alley pizza - 2.5 slices and pop. I don't drink it that much if at all. I'll even only fill my cup half-way at fast food places and get the smallest option or medium size.  But I also didn't drink enough water yesterday as I should have. But I'm trying to be good. Taking my Herbalife vitamins, Total Control, remembering to take my Biotin (because damnit I shouldn't have a thin spot at 33!), and drinking one shake a day. Would be using Herbalife shake mix......but it's old and I'm not currently a distributor to buy new. And budget, so it's slimfast for the moment.

Today is a half-day at work again. And I'm there the whole day. >.< Which means something quick for lunch to take with me and most likely a pop again to drink so I am not dragging behind in the late afternoon. Then off to practice later to get shown up by the kiddos on the dance moves. But I'm moving! ;)

Time and life just seem to get in the way.......

I've been having issues with stress, which of course causes weight gain. Almost everything I have lost has come back. Weigh in this morning 261.2 lbs. What is causing the stress? In a word - work. Depending on the job it could be a coworker or kids. Some days it's both. One coworker found a quote that I need to get a copy of...... Found it online!

I need to remember this and let things roll off my shoulders. There was another one that hit me as I was searching for this one.

This is the truth of the matter - when I hold on to things that upset me, I eat. Doesn't matter what it is, I stress eat. I need to remember that little meals more often are better than binge eating my feelings. Don't get me wrong I still love me some snacks. But I try to limit them. And I notice when I am happy I don't even want them.

So it's time to get back on track. To blog more and veg less. To keep myself accountable to trying to get healthier. As a friend pointed out when I said I needed to lose weight - not High School skinny, that's too skinny. I totally agree. I weighed 164 before I got pregnant with my oldest and was 5' 10.5" tall. I'm 261.2 lbs and 5' 8.5" now. Yeah the weight and my constant slouching have made me shorter - the measuring tape doesn't lie. :( Truthfully to get down to 190-210 range would be ideal. Losing between 50 - 70 lbs is an ideal goal. And of course I decide to start right at the big Holiday eating time! Might be a good thing that we are staying home on Thanksgiving this year. I'll only have to worry about not eating ALL the sugar cookies at the family Christmas parties. >.<

I know eating is not the only part I need to work on. This weekend I'll be getting back into Jazzercise again. Which means I should probably shave my legs as I don't have any long pants to work out in..... Man being a girl sucks sometimes!