Goal not in sight.....

As I sit here feeling yucky this morning, I know there is now way to reach my goal of 210 lbs. by Sunday. So I'm looking at what I have done so far this year. A little over 3 years ago I was at 235 lbs. roughly At the end of this year I am at 235.6 lbs this morning, mind you that is with a few extra heavier layers of clothing on so I'm thinking its more like 233 or 234 lbs. Then 2 years ago for my brothers wedding I was roughly at 249 lbs. and then started this year at 242 lbs.

So even at 235.6 lbs. thats 14 lbs. lighter than I was at my heaviest, thats the weight I was a little over 3 years ago, and thats an accomplishment in itself right there. I can't remember exactly but its either 10 or 15 lbs. you pack on each year just by doing the same things and not doing any exercise and such. If its 10 lbs. I've taken off a year and a half worths of weight gain. If its 15 lbs. I took off all but one lb. of the weight gain - still an improvement.

Either way I got tired of not being able to fit into my jeans...its getting to that point again. They have gotten tight again. So I gotta get back on the bandwagon here and start the year off right. Now you may be thinking 'what set this girl off on this line of thinking?' Well this is the third time that my mother-in-law has decided that I am three times bigger than I actually am when buying me clothing. Mind you I have always had the childbearing hips and thunder thighs to go with them. Which made my lower portion of my body a size 16 before having kids. Lowest I ever got was a size 12 very briefly. So after having one kid she bought me a dress for my birthday - a size 3x dress. Ok I had gained some weight - but NOT that much. I'd gone from the size 16 on the lower half only to a size 18/20. My top half has always been smaller. I wore Mediums in High School. Well actually I wore Larges because I liked the extra room to fit them over my damn hips. But the upper half is now at 14/16, sometimes 18 depending on who makes it. So last year and again this year, my mother-in-law bought me a shirt as my xmas gift. A size 22/24 shirt both years. After telling her last year it was way too big and asking for the receipt to exchange it. Never got it and ended up giving the shirt away because it was too big. This year she asked me to try it on and see if it would fit - I didn't have to. I told her it was big and she gave me the gift receipt (which in my opinion should have just been in the box in the first place) so that I could exchange it.

My frustration is that I gave her my old size 16 pants once I couldn't fit them anymore. So now she assumes that I have become this blimp simply because I have always had a big butt. What the hell?!?!?!

How was your Holiday? Other than that mine was great. Wishing everyone safe travels and good times with their loved ones. Now I'm off to brave the returns line at the store to get something else that will fit. ~Hugs~Jen

>.< grrrrrrrr

Weighed in yesterday morning at 230.0 lbs. I do know why. Silly sugar cookies that appeared in my house thanks to my sister in law trying to be cute and spend time with my kids......and then she took maybe one dozen of the 12 dozen she made back home. Most of them went to a teacher appreciation day at the school form the kids. The rest that were left have made their way into my tummy until today when my hubby was smart enough to take them to work and get them away from me. lol Very good thing since I was getting mad at myself for the weight gain and of course eating because I was mad. Damn viscious cycle that is.

On the plus side I've had a flat tire since last friday night and this past week I've walked roughly 5 miles getting my kids on and off the bus. Quarter of a mile there and a quarter of a mile back. So I have been exercising and the weight gain could have been worse. :) Always look on the brightside. Oh oh - not to mention that I only have to watch the stress makers another two days and then I'm done. :)

Well off for another 1/2 mile walk now. Hope everyone is haveing a great Holiday season so far. Safe travels to those of us who are driving, flying, or however you are traveling to get to your family.

~Hugs~Jen

ugh

So this morning's weigh in is 229.2 lbs.....its gone up again. :( But this is also another TOM weigh in. Health issues are still the same but I have a Dr. appt this Friday to hopefully get things regulated - YAY. I can't stand the twice a month TOM anymore.....its gotta be fixed. I have only a little over a week until I am no longer watching the extra monsters that have been causing all the stress in my life. That's another YAY.

But my hubby is pushing to get an exercise routine started for both of us. He wanted to start running.....but its now winter here in the good ole state of Michigan. SO I squashed that idea. I can do exercise indoors and I can run when its warm but running in the cold always makes me sick and makes my asthma 10 times worse. Which only gets really bad if I overexert myself....catch twenty-two there. lol

So I'm looking at my walking DVD and using my weights some. Looked at Self.com's Reach Your Goal program and starting that this week. Which is nice in that it gives you four different levels of exercise to start with, so you set your own pace. And can change paces at any time.

Slowly realizing that my goal of 50 lbs. lost will not be achieved this year. But I'll be happy to get back to 20 lbs lost and then keep going from there. With the attack of TOM's lately my sweets cravings has like tripled >.< Which of course has caused the weight to come back. But dangit I have a wedding next year that I want to be smaller for and I'm gonna do it. SO I'm resetting my goals and reworking my plan to make it happen.

Off to walk a mile in my living room now. Thanks for listening. ~Hugs~Jenni