Well this week the weight was 233.8 lbs. I have figured it out - I was drinking waaaaaaaaaaay too much pop. I went from not drinking any (maybe once every other moneth) to drinking at least on a day. Tends to not help you in the weight loss department. But at least I was only drinking the litle 8 oz. bottles - with the exception of a few days.

I hope everyone had a great holiday weekend. We went to visit my mom in Lansing and it was reaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllly hot there - no central air. :( But the kids had a blast in the small pool and running around in the yard. Or playing with her two little kittens - they are soooooooo cute and tiny. And of course I overate this past weekend - too much good food around.

Well back to the kids for the morning. :)

Well I am at 231.6 lbs this morning. I have been comforting myself with food the past weekend. A really good friend of mine is shipping out soon to Iraq and I am very worried about him. Any of you out there dealing with a friend or family member out in the middle of this too? How do you deal with it?

But I have been having stomach cramps like I am not eating enough. Which doesn't make sense becasue I have been eating. I think I eat one more snack a day and see if that helps it clear up.

Well back to making lunch for the monsters........errrrrr.....I mean kids. Yeah the kids, right. :)

Well I got my exercise in today by gardening. Had to yank weeds and then plant. Third year I have planted anything in our little bed out front of our house. I just end up buying stuff and never planning. So far has turned out good. lol Took three hours to weed and plant and I came in veeeeeeeeery muddy. But I feel better because it looks soooooooo much better than it did with all the weeds that I let grow last year. I was lazy last year and didn't plant.

Weight this morning was 231 lbs. Up again. Darn ping pong! :(  But I am not falling off this time. I know it is a minor setback and that it WILL go down. Gonna put a sticky note on my mirror saying "It will go away!" Maybe if I see it enough I'll remember it more. haha

I feel like a ping pong ball. My weight keeps bouncing above and below 230 lbs. Finally thought I had it down below. Then I had to go an eat again.....lol. What I mean by this was - I went shopping hungry. When I do this I have this HUGE tendency to buy junk food or food with a high caloric content. And then of course I eat it in the car.

Well my bed is calling but I will be back with updates from what the lbs read tomorrow morning. Hopefully less than I fear it may be.

Nite and hugs. :)

Why is there no "tired" in the mood category?? Well that is what I am which makes me quiet be default. lol Missed exercising this morning. I went to bed around 11:30 and my neighbors oh so kindly woke me up from 1:30 to 3 am this morning with their on again off again arguments. What I get for sleeping with the windows open last night. grrrrrr.

Finally got back to sleep and the alarm went off at 5:30. I reset it for 6:30. I needed my sleep more than the exercise. Especially if I was going to have one extra kid besides my two. So then the kids gets dropped off only to get picked up an hour later because his mom is not feeling well. I say no problem he was only here for an hour. *yippee*

So why do I still feel like I am dragging butt even though I got to take a small nap after lunch time?? Needed to vent. It ticks me off that I missed my second day of exercise. But maybe it is a good thing because my leg is killing me right now. Well gotta go to the bus and pick up the monsters.......errrrrr......I mean my kids. :D

I did it....

Well I woke up this morning at 5:30 am and got out of bed and actually exercised. I walked a mile in about 30 minutes. It is the Walk the Walk with Leslie Sansone. I love this workout and I figured if i am going to start somewhere it should be here. I love the fact that I can start out at one mile and then go to a two mile workout if I want to or have the time. I also have a few others (like 10 haha) that I have looked at over the past three years. I have a wide variety, from Sweatin' to the Oldies 1 & 2 to Carmen Electra's Aerobic Striptease to Masala Bhangra Bollywood verson. And I was fine until I crashed and fell asleep at about 9 this morning. Guess I need to get to bed earlier than 12 am if I am going to get up at 5:30 am. But I got right up - only hit snooze once so it wouldn't wake up my hubby. haha :)

I figure if I continue to get up in the morning and do the workout I will hit that 15 lbs lost mark in no time. I only have 2 more lbs to go. And it has only taken me half the year. :) I have actually been letting the kids outside more and going out with them. Where we live there are at least 5 registered sex offenders so my kids are never out of my sight. So if that meant we spent a lot of time indoors last year that is what we did. But now that they have made quite a few friends - I don't wnat themm all in my small house so we end up at the park a lot. Plus that cuts down on the arguments and on my stress.

Now that the weather is much nicer here (read upper 60s today and sunny) I think I am going to start walking up to the bus stop with the kids instead of driving them - save my gas and get exercise at the same time. I had walked it out atthe beginning of the year to walk to the bus stop it is 1/4 mile if I remember right. So I would end up walking about a mile in a day with the two trips a day. Then on Wednesdays it would be a mile and a half to get the kindergartners at noon. Which is good for another month and then school is out. Hrmmmmm - what to do then? Prolly switch back to using my stair stepper.

*Reply to comment. Christina - thank you! It is much easier to go by 15 lbs incriments I do have to agree. Which of course makes me happy because I only have 2 lbs to go like I saidbefore to hit my first 15 lbs lost mark. Hopefully it will be all downhill from there. :)

Well hope all of you are enjoying this lovely spring day. I think we might venture up to the park here in a little while to see if it is dried enough from all the rain for the kids to play there.

 

Frustrations

I feel the need to vent my frustrations. You all have been great with encouragement and I enjoy reading your blogs too. So thanks in advance for listening/reading. :)

Well I had my birthday and lots of ice cream about two weekends ago now. Then last weekend was Mother's Day - but we didn't really celebrate much. I however did go to Meijer and buy myself ice cream. No one really gave me any gifts it was more a "lets spend time together" weekend than anything. So here is the thing - my weight was up to 234 lbs his past week as of Wednesday. Then yesterday I was at 232 lbs. This morning I got on the scale and it was at 229 lbs. So I know that even with being of my diet I did not kill myself. but I am at everyones throats thsi past week and I am nto liking it.

What I want to know is how can we as women not eat like men? Why can't they be the ones who eat when they are sad or angry or whatever? I do this but not that often anymore because I KNOW I want to lose weight and I know that my feelings are a trigger to eat lots of food I don't need. Yet it still happens some days.

For those of you who may not have read my first posting. I have three daughters and I am trying to lose my pregnancy weight from them. I graduated High School in '98 at one month pregnant and about 178 lbs. Which put me up about 10 lbs higher than I had been before. After the first kid I weighed 210 lbs. Then after the second kid I was about the same 210 to 215 lbs. The third one was not a charm. I was told I needed to gain MORE weight during the last three months of my pregnancy. My Dr told me to drink 2 gallons of water a day at least. I ended up being 230 lbs after my last child. I feel like crap most days. I don't look or feel pretty most days. So I am constantly bi**hy most days. I am slowly getting to the point that I like myself again and I know I have to take care of myself better or face the major health problems that I am could possibly have due to family history. I seriously lack discipline most days and my family is not supportive of the methods I have choosen to lose weight. Which is where you all come in. I need my group of encouraging people to hold me accountable. :) I appreciate it when you send me little notes saying hang in there or your experience with things I am going through. So please bear with me as I get back on the wagon so to speak.

Thanks and HUGS to all. <3 Jen