Bleh

ugh weigh in this morning was 258.2 lbs. it keeps bouncing up and under the 260 mark and driving me nuts of course. i am mad at myself for letting it get back up this high again. and i know that i am the one who needs to change and do the work to get it off. the stress level on this and other things right now it through the roof and no end in sight. trying to figure out how involved i will be next year with the kids school. if i will continue to work there or get a full time job - if i can find a full time job. then what to do with the kids? j will be going into 5th grade next year but not really old enough (or so i think) to be staying home with her younger sisters until i come home. then that means extra bill of childcare. ugh see the stress?!?!

i have been buying weight watchers meals and snacks to eat, keeping track of my food and water intake in a journal, and just trying to think about what i am doing. i need to find the right time to exercise and probably should just get off my butt in the morning and do one of the many exercise videos i have sitting around here. or hell even get out of the house and walk some.