Ugh >.<

Ok first things first -


Finally moved off 233 lbs today. Weighed in at 231.8 lbs. Third day back on the Herbalife wagon. I have been doing my meal replacements and drinking our Herbal Green Tea (or drink and shrink as we call it). And the weight is starting to come off again. You'd think I'd learn that when I know something works to continue to stick with it and use it. Nope of course not. But thats only part of my ugh.

My test results came back and I have to go in for further treatment in order to get it cleared up. The procedure does not sound fun nor does dealing with it afterwards. And then I still will have to come back in 2 -3 months to make sure it is all cleared up or end up with another treatment that is for the most severe form of this crap. If you'd like further details just email me and I'm willing to talk more about it. But I just don't quite feel like putting all the details on here for anyone to read.

Hope everyone is well and enjoying their winter season. We finally have some snow here in Michigan. Kids had two ice/snow days last week. The second one was really a power outage in the school but they didn't care either way. ~Hugs~Jen

Not much in the way of weight change other than I've been feeling like crap. You'd think I'd have learned not to kiss the sick kids. >.< Evidently not! lol So I'm fighting it off once again. Not to mention that I had a Dr appt. yesterday - one of the girl Dr ones - that is messing with me. It was a callback from my prior one. Those of you girls/women out there know that a callback from a typical appt. is not usually good news. Well had some testing done and find out the results end of next week if I remember right. Yippee!!

Ok but in other news I have been using the SparkPeople website everyday and I really like it. It gives me exercise ideas, food recipies, a food journal and a place to vent to myself about anything and everything. As well as a page that people can connect with you on and forums or communities that you can discuss anything. Like a Bookworm one - which of course I am a member of. :D I got the idea for books on tape to read/listen to while exercising using my mp3 player. And then found a bunch of older books online that were free to download and loaded up my mp3 player. I am currently rereading the Anne of Green Gables series.

My weight has stayed the same over the past week. Not gone up or down. I'm thinking its because I have been using the food journal and tracking what I have been eating. It calculates your daily caloric intake needs and tells you in carbs, calories, fats, protein and I added sodium to track. Which really helps me to know when I have overdone it in a day or that what I am eating really isn't as good for me as I thought it is.And you can add foods that you eat on their so the info comes right up when selecting a food item for your meals.

Hope everyone is well this week. Thanks for the comments from those of you who have been checking up on me and those of you who are new - welcome! :) ~Hugs~Jen

A new year, a new beginning

So this morning weighs at 233 lbs according to my scale (technically 233.4 lbs). After having a healthy bowl of mac and cheese for lunch with my girls I'm typing on here again. :) Not the best meal but I didn't feel like making a seperate one for me too today. Waiting on an Herbalife delivery to get back on the wagon. But that doesn't mean that I wasn't smart when I went shopping last friday. I bought fruit and yogurt for my breakfast, to alternate with the raisin bran that I bought the last time I went shopping. And I made sure to pick up the ingredients I'd need to make the shake bars that usually get me thru the day.

So I'll make some bars for tomorrow and get the ball rolling. I now have a reflective carrying case for my mp3 player if/when we do get out to run/jog/walk in the mornings. Always helps to concentrate on music for me when exercising. I guess it would be rude to do that if my hubby goes along with me in the morning too tho......>.> But it will come in handy when I decide to try to make it to 300 steps on my lateral thigh trainer by the end of this week. I'm talking 300 a day not per week. Eventually I'll work my way up to 1,000. Not all at one time tho - aghh that would kill me. But I think between the thigh trainer and doing the walking video and any other walking outside will get me to 1,000 steps a day quite quickly.

I've also found a site that I like using so far. Food journal, exercise tips, and message boards. All found on www.sparkpeople.com If any of you decide to check it out and join will you use my name as a referral - butterflychix5 please? :) It just gets me extra points which evidently aren't worth anything but still fun to see who has joined. :)

Hope you all had a wonderful New Years Eve and are enjoying 2007 so far. I know I'm enjoying the 50+ degrees weather here in Michigan. :D ~Hugs~Jen

Goal not in sight.....

As I sit here feeling yucky this morning, I know there is now way to reach my goal of 210 lbs. by Sunday. So I'm looking at what I have done so far this year. A little over 3 years ago I was at 235 lbs. roughly At the end of this year I am at 235.6 lbs this morning, mind you that is with a few extra heavier layers of clothing on so I'm thinking its more like 233 or 234 lbs. Then 2 years ago for my brothers wedding I was roughly at 249 lbs. and then started this year at 242 lbs.

So even at 235.6 lbs. thats 14 lbs. lighter than I was at my heaviest, thats the weight I was a little over 3 years ago, and thats an accomplishment in itself right there. I can't remember exactly but its either 10 or 15 lbs. you pack on each year just by doing the same things and not doing any exercise and such. If its 10 lbs. I've taken off a year and a half worths of weight gain. If its 15 lbs. I took off all but one lb. of the weight gain - still an improvement.

Either way I got tired of not being able to fit into my jeans...its getting to that point again. They have gotten tight again. So I gotta get back on the bandwagon here and start the year off right. Now you may be thinking 'what set this girl off on this line of thinking?' Well this is the third time that my mother-in-law has decided that I am three times bigger than I actually am when buying me clothing. Mind you I have always had the childbearing hips and thunder thighs to go with them. Which made my lower portion of my body a size 16 before having kids. Lowest I ever got was a size 12 very briefly. So after having one kid she bought me a dress for my birthday - a size 3x dress. Ok I had gained some weight - but NOT that much. I'd gone from the size 16 on the lower half only to a size 18/20. My top half has always been smaller. I wore Mediums in High School. Well actually I wore Larges because I liked the extra room to fit them over my damn hips. But the upper half is now at 14/16, sometimes 18 depending on who makes it. So last year and again this year, my mother-in-law bought me a shirt as my xmas gift. A size 22/24 shirt both years. After telling her last year it was way too big and asking for the receipt to exchange it. Never got it and ended up giving the shirt away because it was too big. This year she asked me to try it on and see if it would fit - I didn't have to. I told her it was big and she gave me the gift receipt (which in my opinion should have just been in the box in the first place) so that I could exchange it.

My frustration is that I gave her my old size 16 pants once I couldn't fit them anymore. So now she assumes that I have become this blimp simply because I have always had a big butt. What the hell?!?!?!

How was your Holiday? Other than that mine was great. Wishing everyone safe travels and good times with their loved ones. Now I'm off to brave the returns line at the store to get something else that will fit. ~Hugs~Jen

>.< grrrrrrrr

Weighed in yesterday morning at 230.0 lbs. I do know why. Silly sugar cookies that appeared in my house thanks to my sister in law trying to be cute and spend time with my kids......and then she took maybe one dozen of the 12 dozen she made back home. Most of them went to a teacher appreciation day at the school form the kids. The rest that were left have made their way into my tummy until today when my hubby was smart enough to take them to work and get them away from me. lol Very good thing since I was getting mad at myself for the weight gain and of course eating because I was mad. Damn viscious cycle that is.

On the plus side I've had a flat tire since last friday night and this past week I've walked roughly 5 miles getting my kids on and off the bus. Quarter of a mile there and a quarter of a mile back. So I have been exercising and the weight gain could have been worse. :) Always look on the brightside. Oh oh - not to mention that I only have to watch the stress makers another two days and then I'm done. :)

Well off for another 1/2 mile walk now. Hope everyone is haveing a great Holiday season so far. Safe travels to those of us who are driving, flying, or however you are traveling to get to your family.

~Hugs~Jen

ugh

So this morning's weigh in is 229.2 lbs.....its gone up again. :( But this is also another TOM weigh in. Health issues are still the same but I have a Dr. appt this Friday to hopefully get things regulated - YAY. I can't stand the twice a month TOM anymore.....its gotta be fixed. I have only a little over a week until I am no longer watching the extra monsters that have been causing all the stress in my life. That's another YAY.

But my hubby is pushing to get an exercise routine started for both of us. He wanted to start running.....but its now winter here in the good ole state of Michigan. SO I squashed that idea. I can do exercise indoors and I can run when its warm but running in the cold always makes me sick and makes my asthma 10 times worse. Which only gets really bad if I overexert myself....catch twenty-two there. lol

So I'm looking at my walking DVD and using my weights some. Looked at Self.com's Reach Your Goal program and starting that this week. Which is nice in that it gives you four different levels of exercise to start with, so you set your own pace. And can change paces at any time.

Slowly realizing that my goal of 50 lbs. lost will not be achieved this year. But I'll be happy to get back to 20 lbs lost and then keep going from there. With the attack of TOM's lately my sweets cravings has like tripled >.< Which of course has caused the weight to come back. But dangit I have a wedding next year that I want to be smaller for and I'm gonna do it. SO I'm resetting my goals and reworking my plan to make it happen.

Off to walk a mile in my living room now. Thanks for listening. ~Hugs~Jenni

Weighed in at 226.8 lbs this morning. So I've gone up a few lbs. since the last update here. And I've finally figured it out. I have too much stress in my life....not that I do much but the little I do is enough to be causing health issues. So this means that the one mom I was doing a favor for and watching her kids - will be looking for a new babysitter before the end of December. It is her kids that have caused the most stress in my life and are causing my children to do things that they that normally they would not have thought to do themselves. I had those kids here on Nov. 7th and I snapped at the end of the day. Then not only were they bad at my house they were bad at the next babysitters house. I have no problem watching kids and generally am a very kind and patient person. But I am at my wits end with these kids and the mom. What started out as "I'll watch them until you find a new babysitter" became I am your new babysitter. And not being paid for my stress - so they are done and I'll watch them right up until Christmas break for the kids but not during and not after.
Hopefully this will bring my stress level down and my body will go back to normal and I'll stop eating to get my frustration out. Which means the kids halloween candy is getting thrown out. >.< Not that they have eaten much of it......I've been doing that for them.
My husband is talking about making us wake up at 5:30 (ahhhhhhhhhhhh) to go out jogging in the morning before getting the kids up. We'll see how that goes. I've done it before but not in a few years.
Hope everyone has a fun and relaxing weekend planned. I'm just hanging out with the kids for the day and giving the hubby a night out wiht friends. Thanks for reading/listening to my small rant here. *Hugs* Jen