Knit a little

Plotting a swap package from someone special keeps making me think of all the things I want to knit. Too many choices though! I think I need to narrow it down to something quick......or finish the project that was on needles ages ago. Darn I think that is what I need to do first. And then I have a birthday monster to make that is two years late. See this is why I blog - it jogs my memory. ;) Will this happen soon.....who knows but I'm hoping it does. I miss knitting and the stress release it provides.

It's gonna take some work.....

Weigh in this morning was 259.8 lbs, yesterday was 258.8 lbs. The difference? Well dinner last night was greasy bowling alley pizza - 2.5 slices and pop. I don't drink it that much if at all. I'll even only fill my cup half-way at fast food places and get the smallest option or medium size.  But I also didn't drink enough water yesterday as I should have. But I'm trying to be good. Taking my Herbalife vitamins, Total Control, remembering to take my Biotin (because damnit I shouldn't have a thin spot at 33!), and drinking one shake a day. Would be using Herbalife shake mix......but it's old and I'm not currently a distributor to buy new. And budget, so it's slimfast for the moment.

Today is a half-day at work again. And I'm there the whole day. >.< Which means something quick for lunch to take with me and most likely a pop again to drink so I am not dragging behind in the late afternoon. Then off to practice later to get shown up by the kiddos on the dance moves. But I'm moving! ;)

Time and life just seem to get in the way.......

I've been having issues with stress, which of course causes weight gain. Almost everything I have lost has come back. Weigh in this morning 261.2 lbs. What is causing the stress? In a word - work. Depending on the job it could be a coworker or kids. Some days it's both. One coworker found a quote that I need to get a copy of...... Found it online!

I need to remember this and let things roll off my shoulders. There was another one that hit me as I was searching for this one.

This is the truth of the matter - when I hold on to things that upset me, I eat. Doesn't matter what it is, I stress eat. I need to remember that little meals more often are better than binge eating my feelings. Don't get me wrong I still love me some snacks. But I try to limit them. And I notice when I am happy I don't even want them.

So it's time to get back on track. To blog more and veg less. To keep myself accountable to trying to get healthier. As a friend pointed out when I said I needed to lose weight - not High School skinny, that's too skinny. I totally agree. I weighed 164 before I got pregnant with my oldest and was 5' 10.5" tall. I'm 261.2 lbs and 5' 8.5" now. Yeah the weight and my constant slouching have made me shorter - the measuring tape doesn't lie. :( Truthfully to get down to 190-210 range would be ideal. Losing between 50 - 70 lbs is an ideal goal. And of course I decide to start right at the big Holiday eating time! Might be a good thing that we are staying home on Thanksgiving this year. I'll only have to worry about not eating ALL the sugar cookies at the family Christmas parties. >.<

I know eating is not the only part I need to work on. This weekend I'll be getting back into Jazzercise again. Which means I should probably shave my legs as I don't have any long pants to work out in..... Man being a girl sucks sometimes!

I've moved.....

My new blog location is here and not only have I moved but I combined this blog with my main blog because really it was too fricking had to keep up with that one let alone this one too!

weight today is 261.0 lbs. typed that backwards to read 216.0 at first - man i wish it was that! anyone watch the biggest loser this past season? i did - mainly because there were a ton of people who were local. you see i live in michigan and not only that but i live just outside the town that ron and mike live in. my kids go to school in that town. ron is actually a sub bus driver and has driven some of the kids to our school. which of course sends us moms and kids who watch the show flocking to the bus stop when we see him. :) we recently went to better health on a trip for food and it just so happened tobe a day that they were there talking to people. my girls were so excited. my youngest B even thinks she spotted mike at a local grocery store after that day......but we weren't certain it was him so we left him alone.

over the course of watching this season i picked up the biggest loser family cookbook. we love it! being a family of 5 we need recipes that are budget friendly and that is what this cookbook is filled with. no to metion most of the things my girls will eat.....and me too. and it seems that by using these meals i am maintaining my weight so the flux isn't so much as it was before. i also am reading master your metabolism by jillian michaels - holy crap the things that your hormones control and make your body do when out of whack! i've been motivated to make sure i eat breakfast and am snacking at least twice a day on healthy food items and not something overly processed. now does this mean that all the sweets and cookies are gone from my house..... no but i am eating them in moderation instead of inhaling half the package in one sitting.

exercise - is still my enemy. i haven't found a good time to be consistent with to actually go to jazzercise. plus with the time changes in the school schedule this year i need to find out how my work hours will be affected to see if i can make a morning session or not. so its down to the wii fit and the numerous exercise videos/dvds around my house. but i'm working on it and cleaning the living room so there is space for me to work out in. darn tiny house!

Bleh

ugh weigh in this morning was 258.2 lbs. it keeps bouncing up and under the 260 mark and driving me nuts of course. i am mad at myself for letting it get back up this high again. and i know that i am the one who needs to change and do the work to get it off. the stress level on this and other things right now it through the roof and no end in sight. trying to figure out how involved i will be next year with the kids school. if i will continue to work there or get a full time job - if i can find a full time job. then what to do with the kids? j will be going into 5th grade next year but not really old enough (or so i think) to be staying home with her younger sisters until i come home. then that means extra bill of childcare. ugh see the stress?!?!

i have been buying weight watchers meals and snacks to eat, keeping track of my food and water intake in a journal, and just trying to think about what i am doing. i need to find the right time to exercise and probably should just get off my butt in the morning and do one of the many exercise videos i have sitting around here. or hell even get out of the house and walk some.

Weigh in

252.something lbs. on Friday. I can't remember exactly what it was. I had a night out with the girls that night and couldn't be bothered (read drank more than I wanted to thanks to friends) to weigh myself on Saturday morning again. It was a fun night out of course and more details are on my main blog (link on the side). But highlights - cute waiter at dinner, a friend who kept putting her foot in her mouth - not literally, a live band and superman. ;)

Have a great week!